A Peace of My Mind

2020 continues to be a year of transformation in my life. As a wife, mother, and young woman.

While all the chaos swirls around me, I find solace in small moments when I realize I am displaying growth. My latest pillar of growth is personal peace. Personal peace for me is being completely at ease with situations that once were a source of stress and turmoil. From the outside looking in it appears to be a flippant attitude, but for me, it is the pinnacle of growth for a self-proclaimed over-analyzing, drama queen.

Peace, that is huge for me. Letting go of the toxicity for my peace. Disregarding closure for my peace. I used to never be able to do that. I always had to have the last word. I had to be right. I had to have those things to feel validated.  Being this way caused many years of unnecessary self-inflicted misery.

Some people will say these revelations come with age. Others will say they come from hard lessons learned. I believe it is truly a combination of the two. I have dragged myself through situation after situation, causing distress to myself only to repeat it over again months later. It is only now (at 30) that I have decided lacking peace is something I am no longer willing to sacrifice in my life. It has to be a priority. If the person, place, or thing does not nurture a state of peace, then it must go.

Some days feel like Cloud Nine while others feel like I am driving the struggle bus. Most recently, I have found my peace being disturbed by others. By that I mean, I have let folks live rent-free in my head. When I realized I was not at peace, I adjusted. For me this looks like cutting ties, setting boundaries expressing my feelings. What would have been huge blowout years, even months ago, is not anymore.

There comes a point where you must ask yourself if you would rather be right or happy? What does being at peace look like for you?

Vianca Price
Vianca is a very social Afro Latina, millennial mom, wife and grandma. She hails from a small town in Central Florida and landed in Southeast Louisiana purely by accident. She has lived a whirlwind life and is a very proud woman in long term recovery from drugs and alcohol. She and her husband, Will, currently reside in Ponchatoula with their youngest daughter, Selena (the mini) and their three dogs. Vianca enjoys all the wonderful events Louisiana living has to offer. She and her mini can usually be found at any number of local events, living their best lives. She is very passionate about health and wellness journeys, which led her to starting her own meal prep service, Keto Kween Vee. Her mission in life is to help others.


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